Sleepy Sunday
So I was catching up on my journal today, you know, writing down the events of the last few days and my thoughts and impressions of those events . I've decided that there is something strangely soporific about doing that. Yes it took me about an hour to get caught up on my entries, what I really need to do is get back in the habit of writing in it each day, that way I don't have to do the marathon writing sessions which leave me sleepy and my hand sore. That being said, I do believe it's terribly important for people to write journals, not just diaries (a list of what they did, ate etc..) but an actual journal. Something that not only chronicles the events in ones life, but also their impressions of those events. Their sacred feelings and impressions from God. Some people journal on their blogs, but as anyone can see writing on my blog is not my forte. Not only that but in my journal I can write anything and everything that I think and feel, but with a blog I'm too aware that there are others that may be reading every word I write. Not many as I believe there are only three people who actually follow my blog, but I only write in it about two to three times a year. Set that aside, I still feel like I'm performing when I write a blog. There is this need to be witty, clever, funny or deep. I can be witty and clever but unfortunately not many find me so and I amuse myself more than I do any other person of my acquaintance. Kind of sad if you think about it, so I guess it's a good thing that I don't. So where I write often in my soporific journal, in which I apologize often to my future posterity who will one day read my journals and think that I am very melodramatic or border line overly emotional. I do reassure them that I am a well adjusted, high functioning adult and my journal is where I vent. I've only learned in recent years how to vent to people and I'm not very good at it because I always feel like I'm complaining. So I vent in my journal. I highly recommend it, it's wonderful because you can work out all your issues, have a perfect sounding board and you don't have to worry about getting any useless advice you know you wont follow, mostly because it's not applicable/appropriate to your situation and is usually overly laden with personal opinion from the giver. That is not something I need. Which is why I'm very selective about whom I talk to on any given subject. People are good for bouncing certain ideas/problems off of, journals are for everything that you can't verbally articulate, but it's okay to put into words. Have you ever noticed that people put the sappiest, most heart wrenching situations into words on a page, but if you ever read them they sound ridiculous. I feel and think differently than I talk and I believe many people are like that. There is a way to talk in our culture which allows one to use many words without ever saying anything substantial. But when you write, there has to be something there, or at least their ought to be something there. Too often people like to play games with words and say very little, and yet they are constantly throwing words together. It's like baking a cake with every ingredient in the kitchen. It's fascinating and, like watching a car wreck, you can't help but watch or listen. But when it's all said and done, you find that there is nothing there but a pile of burnt crap. Unfit for any type of consumption. This is how I feel when our current president speaks and those with whom he surrounds himself.So back to journalling, say what you mean and mean what you say. It doesn't matter if you are especially loquacious or a man/woman of few words. Anyone can put their thoughts out there for other to digest. We all have a right to our thoughts and opinions, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. It doesn't matter if someone disagrees with what I write in my journal or on my blog. These are mine, my thoughts, my opinions. I am a free agent, able to act for myself and that includes think for myself. I can draw my own conclusions on my life and the issues in my world, and decide for myself if they be right or wrong. God gave me that agency and no man or power will ever, can ever take that away from me without my consent, and that is something I will never give.
To end I say a prayer:
God bless all those who fearlessly stand up for truths and for those things which are good. Those who will not allow a wicked and evil generation and leaders to take their freedoms from them. Those who are working and fighting to make this world a better place and who only want to serve God by serving their fellow man. God bless all of those who are struggling with disease, whether of the body or the mind, I pray they will find the strength and courage to face their tribulations and will ask God to stand by them. We all go through trials, often it is so we can learn from them. Ask "What is it that God would have me learn from this?" then get off your knees and serve others. Forget yourself in the service of others and you will find that your own burdens will feel lighter.
God bless Israel and protect and watch over her and her people. Defend her from her enemies and embolden her allies to stand by her courageously. God help us to defend our boarders from those who would hurt our people and take away our sovereignty, even if that means defending us from those who have sworn to protect this great nation. Help this nation to choose good and righteous men as our leaders and cease to do evil and to choose evil. Bless our leaders that they will have Thy spirit to be with them that they might make decisions based upon Thy will, that this people might prosper and be kept safe from her enemies that lay both within our boarders and without. Heavenly Father, I am so grateful for Thy gospel being restored upon this Earth, never to be removed. I'm grateful to be apart of Thy great kingdom. I'm grateful for the knowledge and comfort that can be had in learning about and living Thy gospel. I pray that all peoples might one day know of Thy goodness and partake in Thy glory.
In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
